I am going to weigh 900 pounds by the end of this.
The first five days, I was in shock and fear and worry and I didn't eat.
These last five days . . . lets just say it wouldn't be an exaggeration to say all I've done is eat. Forget healthy stuff, I want CARBS. Not pictured is the bundt cake (ate it too fast) and double recipe of chocolate chip cookies (gone gone gone). And chips, oh how I love my salty flavorful chips . . .
Because, lets face it, we all need something good in our lives right now. Mine might be cookies and Doritos. Yours might be carrots and celery (you go!). What ever it is, doesn't it feels wonderful to gather around warm/delicious things and share them and enjoy something together. We are REALLY enjoying our time together these day?
Well . . . sort of. We are all at loose ends. John's used being gone all day, and during that day super busy. I'm used to being home alone for about six hours where I'm running around keeping everything running (sort of). The kids are used to being gone six hours and then off to their many lessons and activities during the afternoon and evenings. That's all gone. Now that 90% of John's job is on hold until things open back up, he's come home and decided to get us all organized and cleaned.
You can imagine how well that has gone over.
I had this moment yesterday when John was trying to get the laundry room into spit spot shape (a very very bad idea because it's a LAUNDRY room . . . everything is dirty and disorganized), railing about how much junk is in there (ahem, he may or may not have been the person who put it there) and how we were all crazy to live in this disorder, where I sort of wanted to sit down and cry. We were on day 9 and already going a little crazy.
I thought, Oh no, this is going to be HORRIBLE and ETERNAL if this goes on like this.
Only I didn't actually just think it, I SAID it. Out loud. In front of him.
Poor John looked up at me (and he may have been a little bit frantic at that moment), and lost it just a little bit.
Bless his heart, I wasn't very patient. Usually, I am. I've got my crap together but at that moment as things were flying out of the laundry room (including things that actually go there), I lost it too.
Might not have been our best moment.
But the result was.
It let us both start the conversation (which is still going on) about expectations during this madness. I can't keep the house as tidy as usual because it turns out we are ALL living here 24/7. The laundry room has NEVER seen such use. There are art projects and food being eaten in every room. There are people dropping random clothes in every corner of this house. We will ALL go insane if we don't just calm down and live with a little clutter.
Each night we can tidy up, but until then, I'm letting Piper's six pairs of socks (she has a problem putting on and then in five minute taking off a pair of socks) float around. I don't care that the kitchen is messy . . . lunch is in 10 minutes anyways. And then snack and second snack and pre dinner snack and dinner and after dinner snack. It's unending. Also amazing because we are eating lovely food and enjoying each other. So let the kitchen be a bit of a disaster. It's all part of this.
Everything is a little bit of a disaster.
Home school?
Uhhhhhh . . . not going so well.
Because I simply DON'T CARE. I can't. There's literally too much uncomfortable and strange and disorienting for our kids. Throw strange projects and work at them and they loose their crap. At least mine do. We do the best we can, and when I hear that frustration in their voices, and they storm off, I let them. This is hard. Everyone is doing their best (and the teacher are ROCKING THIS!) and I want these kids to know that there is no failure. This is no bad grades right now. There is just trying and keep on trying each day.
They are the brave ones to me. So much new and uncomfortable and they have to deal with stressed parents and worry about their grandparents. They are shouldering it all so well. And no friends or very little friend interactions . . . bless their hearts! I just love them all and understand when they slump around the house being glum. Which never lasts by the way. They bounce back and are running around teasing and laughing with each other without an hour. We could all learn something from them, huh?
So right now, everyone is feeling low. The sky is gray for the second day in a row. It's cold and windy and miserable out. It seems like the only news is bad and there's no end. So we're stepping away from school and expectations and snuggling in and watching movies all afternoon . . . maybe even night.
Order out?
Yes.
Supporting local businesses . . . of course!
Doing our part!
Day 10 . . .
How I end each day . .. looking at Hero . . . sleeping!
And also this one . . . cuteness knows no end!
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