I'm sure I mentioned this before, but I'll mention it again . . . just in case . . . as a child, I was somewhat riddled with anxiety. Like I woke up each morning convinced that this day was my last. My poor mother. Bless her heart for dealing with my crazy. At some point, maybe around 12 or 13 I begin to realize that this daily terror was affecting my life (yes, it took me a minute). Everyone around me seemed to get into cars without the least worry. They'd leave their love ones daily and not fear and tremble that it would be the last time they'd lay their eyes on their dearly beloved. Not to mention, they did fun things . . . like all the time. They biked, swam, ate adventurous food, and well . . . lived. Now, I'm going to get side tracked for a second, and mention that my fears were founded on fact. My brother was seriously injured in front of me, my mother got ran over as I watched (both stories for another time), and literally everything
It's amazing how having a big old stressers changes everything. Things you thought were super important seem so silly and things I took for granted seem so precious and important. I feel like I've been blind, and now I see. I was listening to one of my friends talk about weight loss and how to get her extra five pounds off and how often she things about it. I looked down at my belly and thought, I can't remember the last time I even thought about my body or my wrinkles or my sagging places. With a whole new set of much more pressing worries, physical appearance has gone out the window. Not completely, of course; I still want to be look my best, but my best has changed. My best is smiling. My best is a good day where I can easily smile and laugh. My best is a daily prayer of gratitude that we've gone another day healthy and well. Today, that changed. Finn's been complaining of a pain in his leg since May and for about a week, he walked with a limp. We had h