Birthday Night (and why I'm going to bed ASAP) (47/60)

Phoebe's favorite pre dinner dinner--cheese, grapes, pepperoni, chips and salsa . . .

Pretty much a delicious meal, crazy good desserts, and about 4000 calories consumed by each of us . . . ie a perfect birthday meal/dessert.

19 looks good on this girl . . .

Don't know how I got so lucky to be her mama . . .

And this guy literally flew all night just to be here for Phoebe's birthday. He walked into the house from his crazy trip and went straight to work wrapping and cleaning and making chocolate sauce . . . and didn't stop until the house was all clean about 25 minutes ago. It's night like tonight when I know for a fact that I couldn't have chosen better.

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